i dont want to want more from you anymore.

i'm tired. i'm backing out while it's early, while my anger still far outweighs my concern for you, for us (if that ever existed).

so yea, you did show up last tuesday but we didnt end up doing anything because you had guitar practice with friends. you ended up regretting it because your friends stood you up. so we made plans for the next day, but then you stood me up because robbie wanted to walk home with you. i said it was fine, blahblahblah. we didnt see each other thursday because you had a 20-minute detention. okay. so you said friday, which was today. so i saw you. i wasnt going to the volleyball game, so you asked me out to a movie. i said we'll see. call me. you asked for my new cellphone number, your phone won't go on. you said i should IM you the number, but i had to go with my friends somewhere. you said okay. i said okay. you said call you later. we parted with a hug. i went home. went out with friends. called you home, you weren't there.

i obviously did NOT try a second time. i am NOT going to plead desperate, not ever.

i cant go with you to the movies anymore, it's 9:30, and i am tired. i will not IM you my new number unless you ask for it. i will not call your house anymore, and i will not look forward to your daily visits to my school.

that last one would be quite hard to do, but i just don't want to take crap from you anymore. not from you, no.

it doesnt take another person to convince me that i dont deserve this at all. if you expect me to do the chasing, then i'm sorry to say that i wont do that.

actually, i'm not sorry. what the hell. i dont owe anything to you, i didnt do anything bad to you.

now i'd be as ready as you seem to be to forget that this friendship ever existed.

i just wish you'd actually do something to convince me that you're not full of it.