i know i don't come around here no more. =[ quite a hiatus. and now i still don't know what to say.

i'm (trying) to post again while looking for volunteer stuff in my area. i'm babysitting kids 3 days a week now (yayy), and kim, the kids' mother, has mentioned the lili claire foundation to me in one of our conversations. it's an organization dedicated to helping kids with neurogenic conditions, and i'm happy to say that they do have volunteer opportunities. =] of course volunteering in puppy pounds is great, but knowing that i can do something, mm, relevant, is greater. i'm so excited, i'll contact them first thing in the morning. =D

so yea..at first i thought this summer was going to give me a lot of time to do the things i've been wanting to do, but gosh, it's almost coming to an end! i haven't even been to l.a yet to hang out with my cousins. my dad's heading there this friday, but sadly i can't come with him because i have work. =/ oh well..fact remains that i have one month left. then i start senior year. eek.

i'm finding it hard to make specific long term plans lately because i really have no idea how things are going to be a year from now. i mean sure, i have plans to go to the philippines next july, but i'm rather uneasy visualizing stuff between september and that time. i feel like decisions that i have to make in the near future depend on a lot of things that aren't definite yet (i.e college of choice and sat scores), and i don't want anything to be written in stone until i see an end to my prerequisites. but they never really end, do they? and somehow i fear that i wouldn't be able to make it.

so now i stick with quarter-long plans. mm one sweet step at a time. lol. it's good for now, it keeps me on my toes =] makes me more brave. i hope i learn how to firmly set a goal and do whatever it takes to get to it, instead of straining its attainability with "it depends on so and so.." phrases. i hope i learn soon.

it's so much better just deciding between strawberry and pistachio ice cream. but then again, making the decision to post again is not that bad either. yay.

off to bed. >_<





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