"today is what you worried about yesterday and all is well."

this morning, i made a visit to one of my older blogs. i go there once in a while to make fun of my overly dramatic posts (lol), and also to remind myself that everything turned out to be okay now, even though i did worry about a lot of things back then.

and now i'm worrying about different things, and i guess i need that reassurance.

it's funny, when i realize how much has changed since last year (i started that blog february1'06). yea, my posts there were mainly about moving here in the states, my anxiety about missing my loved ones, "escape routes", and all my hopes and fears about life here in general.

and then i eventually discontinued that blog and started a new one--this one.

looking back, i guess it would have been good (not nice) if i had continued that old blog, and saw the transition of things. just for reflection purposes..to see how i got myself to where i am now. but yea, i guess i needed this whole starting over thing. i refrained from looking back as much as possible back then, even though i really dont mind looking back now.

yea..that's all. i'm just in this sort of amazed state. i'm amazed at the the fact that things are okay today. i'm amazed after realizing how much of a worrier i am deep inside.

could it really be...that the things i'm worrying about today will actually turn out to be alright tomorrow?

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