i find it quite interesting how she always dodges my "how's your lovelife" question. to think she's the one who's always asking first about how mine is.

then again, i guess i only asked her that question too just because i thought that's how a conventional conversation/letter/email would flow ("i'm fine, and you?"). and she might actually want to tell me something by asking me that question first, i dont know.

i'm not saying that i want to know how she's doing with him, whether they're doing really great or not. i dont really care about that. all i'm saying is that i dont think she should ask me a question that she doesn't feel comfortable answering herself.

there's always been that underlying tension/discomfort in her emails, which makes me wonder why she has started emailing me in the first place. i mean, i felt the need to make sure that i didnt really have anything against her anymore before responding to her. i would be unfair to myself and to her if i still had issues with her and wrote back anyway. that'd make me what, plastic? =T

it makes me feel kinda weird now, though, after realizing that i'm keeping in touch with her, of all people, when i haven't had the chance to catch up with my best friends in ages.

i dont know what to say now..oh well..mm bye?